Day 6

6/26/12

Well, today was another SWAT day- and I can honestly say I prayed just as much for you today as I did yesterday. God is good. My prayers would be that you would be protected and have nothing come at you. So even though you were bored, God was listening to me- and I am so grateful for that. I get so many sweet texts from you today. It is obvious you want me in your life. You send me the HOTTEST pic ever of you in uniform and I have to restrain myself to not come through that phone and take a whole lot of advantage of you! You also send me pics of teammates- and that was cool. I prayed for the team, not just my favorite player of it.

The day goes ok for you- we had a reallllllllllllllllllly rough night. Not to dwell on the negative- but I saw beautiful glimpses of your true character come out when you drove flew got to my house really fast just to make sure I was ok. Do you know how scared I was when the doorbell rang? I date you and I was scared out of my mind to know how you figured out where I live. Then I was reminded that is kinda what you do for a living- I am seeing I will have no secrets- if I had any- with you. I bet the people you bust up on have way more terror than I did- because I got to be held by those arms and not cuffed by them. Bad night. BUT in it all- you reminded me that you- and everything you bring to the table- is what I have waited my whole life for. You let me cry to you and you listened- with intent and nothing but protection. It feels so good to be in your hug- to know nothing can get me when I am there. It made me feel really good to know that you- you Kevin Pope- wanted me and came after me. You were doing what guys do when they love a girl. This is all still new to me- so please forgive me if I just looked stunned when you showed up. Not a knight in shining armour- a SWAT teammember with guns. In a charger. Way more awesome than a horse.  Ready to get his girl and take no crap from anyone or anything. This is the moment when I knew everything you said was TRUE. And that you werent taking no for an answer.

I was your girlfriend and you were going to do anything in your power to make me safe. This love came on so fast- but in that instant- I knew I wasnt playing games- this was REAL.  I love the way you hold me. You make all of the ugh, the bad, and the awful go away. It doesnt stick to me when I am with you.

I am free to laugh with you- talk to you openly about anything- sit next to you- kiss you- and just cry crocodile tears with you- and you never change. You are still there for me. You want to be there for me. Oh, this is so new. But I like it. No- I love it. The idea that someone- you- think I am it and are not going to give up on me- can never be penned into words. Or typed I guess. You make me feel things I havent felt- ever. Not just in a long time- but ever. Safety. I have never felt that. Desire and burning passion just to get to know me- not take advantage of me. If this is it- I am so thankful I raised my standards and got what I wanted. Your love- the love you so freely give me- is wonderful. Thank you for wiping my tears, for giving me real advice, and for loving me when I am broken. That is a hard thing to do- but you do it with no hesitations. If this is the stuff dreams are made of- I am so glad I get to live it out with you.