4 weeks

4 weeks to the day that we have been together. EEEKKK!

In a matter of 4 weeks we have:

• decided this was IT.
• planned a wedding
• picked out wedding stuff
• bought things together for our house
• been shopping for you some new church clothes
• been to dinner with my closest of friends- who love you
• been on 2 really fantastic dinner dates Aubri Lanes and The Cheesecake Factory
• Rented a hotel room- what?!
• Been to the ER ( I want to look back at this and laugh, but right now, still not funny)
• Cried to each other over past relationships and those gone far too soon from our lives
• Ran an early morning run (keep me motivated?)
• Been to a Braves game
• Spent countless hours talking- please dont ask me to remember about what- but I loved every minute of it
• Had to make major decisions regarding our churches
• Had a 60th bday party for your dad
• Had a busted cheek, a semi broken wrist, and some killer bruises- all from you might I add
• Laughed so hard at the other's goofy-ness- and still havent left
• Prayed together- you have no idea how much this means to me.
• Been completely honest with each other- and I hope that never stops. I can tell you anything- and that is a great feeling.
• Taken an amazing bubble bath :)
• Pulled 2 gray hairs- BAHAHAHAHHA sorry!
• And fallen more in love every day.

I hate to leave you this weekend, but I know those huge sexy amazing comforting arms will be there when I get home. Take care of my baby girl- :( and give the boys my love. More than yesterday and Less than tomorrow Kbaby- I love you most.

What day is it?

Now you are singing a Lifehouse song aren't you? Baby- I don't know what day it is on this love calendar, but I do know it has been 3 weeks. THREE WEEKS AND OUR LIVES HAVE CHANGED FOREVERRRRR. Forever ever. Foreva foreva.

I just want to make a few bullet points to catch us up to speed. Whirlwind!

• We have been saying I love you for 3 weeks.
• When you kiss me, I lose my breath every single time.
• Watching you cook dinner has been a blessing to my soul.
• Watching you cut grass while I am working out makes me hopeful for our future.
• Getting funny texts from you brings a huge smile to my face.
• Just hanging out in the same room with you is enough for me.
• Spending time with the Chis makes me happy.
• The way you look at me- drives me crazy. In a good way.
• We have started planning a wedding. Like for real? Hey I just met you- here's my ring size- marry me maybe? I dont know what we are doing- I just know I dont want to do it with anyone else.
• I love the way you smell. Even your morning breath has a distinct smell that I dont mind.
• I love YOUR laugh. It is so big and so real. And so country.
• I like washing dishes with you.
• The sweet kisses I get on my hands are wonderful.
• I love your hair. Even the short sides. But not on your chest. Or there.
• I love how you eat healthy- and I didnt have to wage WWIII to get you to this point.
• I love the excitment you get in your eyes when we make plans.
• If you dont stop kissing me with your hands wrapped around my face- I am going to turn into a puddle from melting.
• When you say "Baby" in your official voice- like when I tease you- oh I laugh so hard.
• Thank you for clearing the dogs out of the bed.
• Thank you for trusting me with the boy pups.
• You do light up my life like no one else. I am so excited to see where our future takes us. You are the best thing. Oh I love you so much.

Day 9

6/29/12

If I could say only one word to talk about the night we had: I am just going to say "spark-filled". Yes, that is one word, see the hyphen???!

Back track- Today was a big day. WE decided that I didnt need to move to Wilkinson County and that I needed to be close in town, for various reasons, but I secretly know it is because I didn't want to be that far away from you.

For the first time, looking at places on my own didnt feel right. I wanted you there with me, guiding me and giving me advice and protecting me from living somewhere awful. When I had to look at that loft alone, I already knew I wasnt going to live there. I want you to have a say in what I do. I walked in that place and immediately wanted to cry. Is this it God? This is what you have for me? This is awful God- and the door could be kicked in really easily. I sent you the video just to hope that you would share some of my pain and tell me to do something different. When you replied just walk away from it- my tears resided and my heart beat came back to normal. Oh praise Jesus that God hears the heart of the brokenhearted!! You truly cared for me and could sense that I didnt feel safe through some text written words. You didnt even have to hear my voice and you knew something wasn't right. Kevin, I am so grateful for that.

I like how you "get me" when I know I dont get myself. So on to some more calling and panicing. Somehow in the back of my mind I wanted to listen to you and believe that what you were saying was going to be made true, about it working out and something would turn up, but I couldnt bring myself to it. I just knew I wasnt going to find something and leaving the "Ritz" was going to be the worst mistake ever. God proved me wrong, just as well as you.

It was SO comforting for you to come look at that townhouse for me and with me. To know that you spent a lot of time trying to get here quick to protect my decision made me feel oh so extra special- and that I was worth something.

When you said pull the trigger baby- I knew you had my best interest at heart. And then you said "It is only temporary". Kevin- Im glad you didnt lean in close to hear my heart- because it was running away wild. You dont even know me- but you know you want to spend the rest of your life with me- trying  making me happy. And the first step in that was making sure I felt safe. Thank you for doing that for me.

I just want you to know that Friday night was the BEST date. I will admit I was incredibly nervous and that my tummy was rumbling because of sheer nerves. Waiting on you to get there was so awful. I felt like I was 15 again. A school girl with a big ol crush getting picked up to spend time together with a BOY. Too much! You made the waiting worth it. Man- if I havent told you- you are beyond attractive. So dreamy and so freaking hott. Your shoulders surely set you apart. You looked so handsome. And the cutest part? That you wanted me in the middle. Oh, that is a first. I am glad it was both of our firsts. The details of this date can be described as:
it felt so right, I am so overwhelmed that you would kiss me in public- and at the dinner table. I smiled the entire time. Even in the funny parts (you missing your mouth a few times), I didnt want to be ANY where else with ANY one else. You made me feel like I was the only girl on the planet, seriously. I had your complete attention and it was so sweet. My crabcakes and asparagus were truly amazing- but only because of the wonderful man I was sharing it with. Thank you for a perfect date night Mr. Pope, let's do it again real soon love.

Later that night- I see another sweet side of you. You moved a truckload of my crap into my new place and everytime you put a box in the new place, there was a sweet kiss waiting for me when I came in. You will never know how much this meant to me- that you ask me on a date a week earlier and the next you are willingly moving me into a new apartment. Kevin, you are an amazing man. I am so glad God put this life in order and that I can be next to you. Thank you for a fun night of getting dressed up and actually being made to feel like I was pretty- and for making that hour and a half the best talking time ever. Thank you for moving my stuff so late at night. Thank you for holding my hand on the ride home while I was about to drift off to sleep. Thank you for praying for us. So excited to call you mine!

Day 8

6/28/12

I have really got to start keeping up with this and get back on the right day! Stop swimming around in my head so I can think clearly!!

Baby, I honestly don't remember anything but that we had a "phone free from blowing up" night. You looked at me and said- what is this? A silent night? -oh baby I am so glad that you love me- even when I bring a lot of suitcases backed to the brim baggage.

Your smile could light up the darkest place- I know this for sure because I have experienced it first hand. That smile has set my heart ablaze and brought the good out in me. This smile has found me in my weakest point and turned my quivering upside down frown into a bubbling over big as Texas smile. But- there are other parts that bring out things in my heart as well. Those sweet and loving eyes hold my gaze and dont ever lose sight of me. Those big massive hands hold on to the tiniest fingers and hold my face tightly when you kiss me like I am the best thing. Your shoulder has been a welcoming landing place for my head and my broken heart. They hold me up when I feel like giving up.

The best thing about you? Oh, your sweet touch. I dont have to search for it- I most assuredly dont have to beg for it. It is always within reach when you are in the same room as me. When you pull me from my side of the bed into those incredible arms- to when we are in the car and you just feel the need to sweetly kiss my hand. Your touch on the small of my back gives me the notion that you arent going anywhere anytime soon. You move whisps of hair out of my face just so you can get a better view of me. You hold onto to my small hand and wrap yours around every corner- just to be next to me. You will never know what this touch has revitalized in me.

Oh, you bring out the love in me. Seriously- I forgot what this was like- but THIS is so much better than any other- because it isnt forced and you truly want to be next to me. Thanks for a great night of just hanging out and loving and talking. I am so grateful you are a cuddle buddy!