Day 5

6/25/12

Focus on the good. I woke up next to you again. I sent you off with a ton of kisses and an amour of prayer over you and your team. Today was a good "test this water see how deep it really is" day. Oh- this SWAT stuff is overwhelming. I have never done this before. BUT- as I come to work after running and praying for you and your team- and I make it in on time- my sweet friend Sandra greets me at the back door to ask all about the date. The one who texted Saturday to see how the date was Friday- and I said- I am still here! Oh- I didnt have to say anything to anyone. Every person who passed by that bench could tell something was different about me. My smile was back. The smile that truly lights up a room. I GUSHED again over you- to not one, not 2, 3- but roughly 10 people about you and the weekend you gave me. I was different. I was changed. I was back to the happy girl that people tell me I used to be. I was her.

Every single one of the women I worked with heard this story so many times. I was laughing. Speaking to them. Because I have kindof been a hermit the past while. I would just come shut my door and cry in here. And then pull it together and go out to at least let them know I was in there. Back to story. Monday was the best day, oh, My happiness lasted all day. I got a lot of work done. I prayed for you every time I thought about you- please know that this was a lot. I was scared out of my mind about whatever you were doing but God provided and I am so grateful. It was so good to finally get texts from you saying you were ok. And THEN. I come back in my office from some pool time with the guys (not threats to you fyi) and I have a weird feeling something isnt normal because all of my coworkers are just reallllly quiet. I walk in my office with my bathing suit on under my new dress- and I see the bigget brightest bouquet of my FAVORITE flowers on my desk with a big card. I immediatly open the card and read the words: With Love, From Kevin. My heart just literally busted out of my chest. You really were listening. Kevin, wow, you made this smile get so big. And all my coworkers were just waiting to see what I would do- and what the card said. You are an amazing person. Never ever forget that.

Monday VBS starts- you text me all through it- and it gives me great hope that you really do care about the things that I am involved with. That night- you know we had a crappy turn of events and I came over and cried. But- erase all that and you scooped me up in your desk chair and help me close. So close that I felt like this was one of those "deserve" things I had been hearing about. We moved to the floor and you talked to me and held me some more- and then- you asked me to be your girlfriend. ??!??!?!?!?!?!?! Huh?! No I heard you- but I am just processing it. Is this right? Is this it? GOD!? I get to lie awake with you and love on you and you do the thing that I was least expecting. You ask to pray for us. WHAT? Stop. The. Bus. You prayed the sweetest sincere prayer over us, and you dont know this, but tears were steadily filling my eyes and heart. Never feel like you have to impress me with words. You are praying to our Creator- and you have an audience of 1. I just get to be blessed to hear those sweet words sent up to God on my behalf. I am pretty sure it was this moment when another bad layer of hurt and distrust and never wanting to date again is gently removed and polished. My heart was so overjoyed. I didnt ask you to do that. You did it own your own. Your true character shown through Mr. Pope- and it was absolutely beautiful.

Sneaky way to ask me to be your girlfriend- send me my favorite flowers and there is no way I could say no- especially when you back it up with one of your out of this world kisses and deep deep discerning eyes. In the words of Michael Jackson- you rock my world!