Today was a special day. You texted me all throughout the day and somehow convinced me to MEET YOUR PARENTS. Huh? Say what Willis? Your parents? It is our 3rd time hanging out. Is this normal? No- no one is about to do what we are about to do.
As I am about to get in my car with 2 little blonde kids in the backseat- I run over to a white pickup truck with my friends and their sweet blonde babies in the back seat and they say- what are you beaming about? And I said "I had a date!!" I run back to my car and then feel the need to run back to my best friends and say "And I slept over last night and I am so excited!" They die laughing and say- call us we want an update!! As I am driving to Crockett's, I get a text from Andrea that says "it is so good to see you genuinely smile again!! I have missed this part of you! I am happy you are happy1" What friends I have, so blessed.
I eat lunch with one of my favorite couples and they tell me all about you, Mr. Abercrombie. Yes, yes you live up to that name OH SO WELL- you are the TOPIC of conversation. Everything I say is brought back to you- and over and over and over again I hear "I havent seen her smile in so long!!"
All the while I am beaming, choking on too salty of turkey, laughing and smiling. Do you know what it feels like to truly smile again? Oh, my big old cheeks hurt today. In the back of my mind I have to ponder the words I just heard before lunch from my ex-boyfriend's dad as his family (minus the ex) comes to the same place for lunch. He introduced the Simpson clan- and then me- as someone's girlfriend. And I immediately blurt out EX girlfriend and you can see these strange looks overtaking me. Like someone said SEX out loud in church. I just smile and walk in. And Laurie says, what was that about? I say- I dont know but that is not how it is. I stand in a parking lot talking about the past 3 days with you and my friends can not only sense that I am happy- but they have great satisfaction in knowing that what they said came true. It is so nice to have people around to get happy when you are happy. Ps they said- as soon as I let go, I would find happiness.
I drive over to another friend's house with kids and as I sit in a sweetly green and pink painted little girl's room at my best friend Andrea's house- I GUSH over how much I like you. I listen to advice from a friend who truly cares about my happiness and has been there for me when I was at my worst. Her husband comes in and he says something to the effect of geeze I cant sleep because yall are in here talking about some guy! And I tell Lee all about you- who has been a direct guy friend who has listened to me the past 6 months of my life complaning about crap. I said these exact words "Lee- he has a tool shed. With tools in it and he knows how to use them!" He smiled for me. And said "Looks like you found a MAN. Bout time! And I went on and on about you having a house, a truck, and ambition. Both of my friends were excited for me. They said they wanted to hang out with you. That is a big step, because I am the only person they ever let come over. No one else. They live in the quiet life. I guess they need to be reminded of what nonstop talking is so they invite me over ;)
I come to your house after church- and I am not only nervous, but scared out of my mind about making a good impression. I have to hold true to Andrea's words that if I just be myself that will be good enough. And so it begins. Dinner was wonderful and I lose my nerves very quickly. I felt accepted and wanted- and they cool part: you loved on me in front of your parents and brother. Huh? What is this? You touched me and held on to my thumb- and even sensed to move your legs closer to mine because I was nervous at the table. You kissed me. You made me feel like I was already apart of the family. There was no awkwardness with your family and I loved everyone. It made my heart smile to catch you
Move to that night. I am only going to focus on the me and the you- not the anything else that happened and was distracting- so heads up.
You asked me to stay just so you could kiss me goodbye in the morning. Again- please pinch me- because guys like you dont exist. Or at least not ever in my life before. You wanted to wake up next to me. You showed me your SWAT gear- just to ease my mind of coming into dating someone who really does risk their life to save others. It made me feel so much better that you took the time to explain that to me. Oh, I felt a tiny glimpse of love. In that moment, I saw you different. You not only want to protect me with everything in you- but you wanted me to know you were protected as well. I got to go to sleep with you holding me- and wake up before you and just spend some sweet time with you. Prayers were sent up that entire night for you- because we both know the reason why I didnt get any sleep :s eek.
Oh- today was a good day. All the things I have wanted- were finally coming true. Dreams that I quit pinning on Pinterest months ago flooded my memory and I saw happiness unfold before my eyes. My Pinterest boards have been getting a lot of action since last week- fyi. The part that I dont understand- and maybe never will- is how you can just touch me and make me feel the safest I have ever felt. I am safe with you just in the house- not even in the same room as me. These are new feelings, but I know they are old wants. They have just never had the chance to come to fruition. You make a lot of things real to me. Snuggling next to you- warms my heart. And back. Because you produce enough body heat we could use you for geo thermal heating ;)
My friends have all said "You DESERVE to be happy". I didnt believe I was capable of that- ever. Or if I had ever truly been happy. The past weekend has shown me- that with the right person, I can be more than happy. I can be my normal fun loving, laugh at the top of my lungs, and smile so big you can see my molars-self. Thank you for finding this girl again. I had forgotten who she was.
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